I'm in an extremely happy mood right now. Why? I haven't the slightest idea.

Let me recap the past few days:

Friday night, my Marble Hornets DVD finally came. Yay! So what did I do? I watched both disks all the way through.

Saturday, I had to go get new clothes. Have I ever said how much I hate a lot of the people in my age group?

Sunday, went to Vermont with family (huge family outing, though I'm not related to any of them). Happy Easter btw. Whatever it celebrates anyway (rants about how meaningless Holidays are becoming these days)

Sunday Night/Monday Morning, had a very weird dream/nightmare. I was in a city in a car with my step mom. We crashed by a hospital/science building, and she left me. When I came to, the place was under quarantine (there was some crazy smoke stuff going on through the windows), and the place was near deserted. I saw a guy run past and I opened the car door to ask him what was going on. He said the place was under quarantine, and that if we didn't get out of there/hide, we were going to get caught. So I ran with him, and he went to a building and opened a vent grate and got in. As I was getting in, I heard shouts. I got very fearful here, and when I got in the vent (it was vertical, and it seemed like an endless drop) I woke up. And my back (along my spine) felt weird. Like a weird tingling hot and cold at the same time feeling. And in my minds eye, I imagined a RIG on my back, flashing red :P When I went back to sleep, I was back in that city, but running from Agents (of what, idk), and hid in a building. I escaped, then somehow liberated the city from... something evil I guess. Haven't a clue.

Monday, I started and finished my ref sheet for a tournament I'm in on DA. Not very happy with it, but it's WAY better than the ref I made a couple years ago for a different tourney that I didn't get in. whatever.

So today, as mentioned before, I'm am in a ridiculously good mood. Last time that happened, my whole day went down the shitter :P ah well. We'll see.

Excuse me for a moment.

regards,
aXn

HEADACHE

Another Nightmare last night - and some ramblings

This is getting a little redundant. I mean, seriously now. These nightmares are starting to bug me, especially since they tend to wake me up at some horrible hour in the morning in a coughing fit. Not amusing.

I'm unsure how exactly it went.

It started with me and a couple others, in a seemingly abandoned community or something of the sort. We had been in... an apartment, squatting/taking refuge/whatever for an indiscernible amount of time. We were.. running from something in the apartment complex. It was dark everywhere, so it was hard to see where we were going. We had been separated or something (and I think there was something about a test...?) and I was running down through a hallway that had many turns, and the doors, previously closed, began to open behind me, and when I would look back, Tall and Faceless would be in that room, watching me. At some point, I found a door that was  opened (and inside was dark) and I 'hid' in it. This part is confusing. It was like a game where you can pause it, but my head felt like it was buzzing with energy and I couldn't concentrate (hard to describe) or focus, and the next thing I knew, the hallway light or the room light was on (it was very illuminated where I was) and SM was standing not even and inch away from me. Scary bro.

Transition to me running into an alley in between a few large brick buildings, still dark outside. And I was being chased by these people (who later I dubbed as Proxies) who had these glowing eyes (I think they were green). I remember getting into one of the buildings, then nothing.

Transition to a big house, three levels if I remember correctly(I was on the top level). It was bright and warm and cozy and this lady who owned it turned out to be an angel (or something of the sort). She allowed me to stay at the place. Then this dude had come up to her and asked for the floor plans of the house. She told him to look to the balcony or something (well, when I think about it, she gave directions like she was pointing to some object on a shelf).

 The guy went over to the balcony and I followed him, and there was a woman on the ground looking up at the guy. I saw through his vision (clairvoyance hurr) just a normal person, but when I switched back to my vision, I saw not a woman, but an angel, with golden wings. And the angel looked to her right, and there stood another angel, but with grey/silver wings. The guy couldn't see it (clairvoyance) but I could. Sliver wings had a knife, and she started to cut off her left wing. With each cry of pain, Gold wings started crying/screaming for silver wings to stop.

I walked further into the balcony, and found other angels, and I told them that I knew what they were and I could see their wings. One of them gave me a nasty look. Some point mt glasses were knocked off and fell down between the wooden floor boards to the bottom level (by the basement)below..

Next thing I know I'm in the bottom level of the house (outside), on a search for my glasses. But it was dark, and again, I was being chased by the Proxies. I ran into the house through a sliding glass door, and the House Lady was there, with the angels, and they were casting a spell to keep the Proxies out. They said I had to help (make a chant to power he spell), and I had said something/emphasized Friday in the month of February, and Man and Woman. I have no clue. Then the Lady was teaching us how to fight against some powerful being, and I had said that I already took a self defense class. I think the Proxies broke in at this point, and I woke up having a coughing fit.

When I did wake up, my room was very warm. Good thing I have water with me at all times.



In other news, I won a huge basket of Japanese candy. Reason: A week or so ago, the Japanese Culture Club at my school was holding a raffle at lunch, which was pretty much donating money to help support Japan and whatnot by buying raffle tickets (the money went to the Red Cross which went to aiding Japan), and since I know most of the people in the club (and I wanted to help), I bought a few tickets. Today, on the announcements, they drew out a ticket, and lo and behold: <Insert my name here> wins. What a surprise. I mean, really. I NEVER win anything. Like in German class a few years back, we had a raffle drawing (we got tickets when we did good; I got a bunch) but I never got anything. ifhjg lsighkj sdkh oh well.  There's enogh sugar in my room now to kill several small animals :D

Well, that's all for now. I have an essay for English I have to type up (jdsh jgjhdf sfsd ). At least spring break is next week.

regards,
aXn

I'm turning into a pile of mush

PORTAL 2. df jhgsdrfug g d,k the soundtrack.... OH god, how I've missed GLaDOS's voice... drools It's just so spectacularjdf sk jsfhsjd fjsd  too bad it lags like hell on my laptop. Oh well. That's what computer towers are for. gfjsdf bhkjfbghsdfkj bsgb sd Excuse me while I go calm down. I haven't been this excited since Dead Space 2, and that's still sitting on my desk, waiting for me to upgrade to a gamer's PC or an actual computer :P

BTW, got a huge ass first aid kit, since I'm taking CPR and First Aid classes this quarter. I looked through it earlier (the kit). Holy shit. There's like... over 9000 band aids in there xD

I don't have much time for this post, so I'm going to have to cut it short.

regards,
aXn

NoitMairs

HURR.
Firstly: TF:P - New episode yesterday. fsjsdhsjhfj dh I'm such a weirdo. xD

Now: Nightmare peoples. And guess who starred in it? SM. hehehhhhhhhh... NO. THANKS.

It starts out as one of those "IDK why, but I'm going to school, but the journey there makes absolutely no sense what-so-ever and takes forever to get there" kind of dreams. Fun. So I'm in this place that's like a city  that's indoors (like the Sprawl from DS2), and the whole thing goes up quite a few levels/floors. I'm in the shopping sector looking for some of my friends so they can ride the tram with me to school. Yes, a tram. I go into a store and find my friend, Haley, and I ask her if she would like to join me. But she says she can't cause she has to finish up her job and close, but she'd meet me at school. So I left, and went to another store, where my friend John was, and asked him the same thing. I don't remember what he said, and I left, and proceeded to go to the large stairway that led to the tram station.

On the stairs, I saw John there. Well, two of them to be exact. And I asked the one closest didn't I just see him upstairs not even a minute ago, and he replied I couldn't of, cause he hadn't been upstairs the whole day. The other John just glared at me. And so I went on my merry way.

I don't remember how, but I ended up in the residential sector, in a garden/park area. There was a girl there, who had hair in her face and a hoodie on with the hood up, and she was obscured by shadow, regardless of being in the light or not. She had a knife (well, it looked like a knife) and it was either black, or covered in something black-ish. And she started to chase me throughout the gardens, and every so often, we'd come across one of my friends, and she'd kill them, right in front of me. Eventually, I made it to my house (and surprisingly, the door was opened already. I also vaguely remember being stabbed by the girl, but that could of come from another dream).

 But the thing was, the girl was no longer chasing me, more like, running away from something, but in my direction. She looked so scared (her hair was no longer in her face) and terrified. I got in my house and closed the door, and locked it. The next parts I may get screwed up.

After locking the door, she crashed into it, pounding on it and screaming/pleading/crying for me to let her in. But I didn't. I looked through the peephole and saw her, crying, and HIM standing behind her, his arms out as if he was going to hug her (and the weird thing is, I couldn't look directly at him, and every time I tried, I just couldn't). But those who are familiar with the Slender Man Mythos know that He wasn't going to hug her. I do believe, at this point, I slid down the the door, but I also remember watching her blood be splattered on the peephole lens at the same time (like double vision), so I think I saw both peephole and eyeball vision :P

So as I listened to the girl be murdered (screaming and screaming and screaming), I was staring at the door across from me. It was partially covered in shadow, and part of me told me/asked me that there was something bad behind that door. For some reason, I stood back up and looked through the peephole again. HE was STARING RIGHT AT ME WITH HIS FACELESS FACE. All up in the peephole lens. And part of me knew that he had his arms open in that hug like pose.

AND THEN I WOKE UP (at like... 420? I checked the time a little after I woke up). And I swear on my life that something said either "Hi" or "I" from the corner of my room where my heater is. It could either be early morning hallucinations, residual blabla whatever it is from the nightmare, or just some random yahoo outside at godaweful hours in the morning. IDK. Maybe it's something else.


In other news (related on the Slender Man topic), when I was hanging out with John and Haley today, I had one HELL of a coughing fit (we were on top of a parking garage, looking at the city/town below when it started). Like, it was so bad that I got a headache and a stomachache from it. And I just couldn't stop coughing. John suggested that we go back down (he knows of SM. He was all like "He's here!"), and while we were going down the stairs, the coughing got less and less until it eventually stopped (with the occasional coughs here and there). And mind you, I'm not sick anymore. I'm still kind of coughing a little here and there, but it's not as bad. blahsdfjae hfkeh kfh sfehjfjahh

And in awesome news: PORTAL 2. YES. jef sjsr NEXT WEEK. DJgfs kgh rgkjaz rgaht 48 u9q34ut0q84qurtfhdf jghdughdrh

hurray for random button smashing~

regards,
aXn

According to my dreams, a creepy, non visible faced humanoid owns me.

I just want to go home.

But where is home? Here? Back in Vegas? HAH! You have no nowhere to go! There is nowhere that you can go to escape what's happening, you know that! Your nightmares and personal demons are just going to following you till the day you DIE! Whether you accept that or not.


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Alright. I said I'd post that dream from last week [and none from this week, mainly cause I can't remember any of my dreams].

3/31/11
 Started with me going to my friend John's house. It was bright and sunny, like, really bright. There, we hung out and waited for one of his other friends to come over [who I'll call D]. D eventually came over, then we all drove to this convention thing, where I bought something, but I had to come back the next day to pick it up. After, D dropped us off at John's house, and then drove off. I had to text my mom that I needed a ride home [though in my dream I was living with my step mom]. The scenery changed or something, but not by much. It was still Johns house, but the layout had changed, and John disappeared. I walked into the living room, and there my mother was, on the floor, in one of those makeshift beds made of blankets and such. She was just laying there, staring at me. Her eyes were empty.

 And crouched behind her, was this.. thing. I wouldn't want to call it a man; in my dream, I just knew he wasn't human, he just looked it. I don't think I ever really saw his face. It was pale? I don't know. It was blurred over. The rest of this.. Man was dark, black even. And sharp, as in, he had sharp angles on his body instead of smooth round curves of a human. Like he was an imposter. He looked right at me, and grinned. And he told me: "She belongs to Me. And soon, you'll belong to me, too".

There was some sort of transition here, I don't really remember the details, but I know I ended up in a different house. This one was not as bright, and it was in a slight blue-ish haze. There was a main living room, with two doors branching off on the left wall. From where I was standing, the Door to outside was behind me, and there was a window I couldn't see out of across the room. There was a dresser on the right wall that had my clothes in the top drawer.

If I remember correctly, the first door on the left was open, which showed it led to the master bedroom, which came with a bathroom. On the bed was Brian [an asshole who's now in a mental hospital for reasons you need not to know], and he was on his side, staring at me in the same manner that my mother did, his eyes empty as well. Behind him, was the Man, who was looking at me, again, but this time his face was much darker, nearly corresponding with the same color as his body [but I think it had a slight reddish tint to it now]. And again, he grinned, and told me: "He belongs to me, and now, YOU belong to me".

I was now back in the main room, kneeling by the dresser, the top shelf open. I was looking through the shirts, and the Man was by the door, with Brian [whose features had darkened and had become blurry]. The Man wanted the three of us to out to somewhere, but I don't know where. He had already opened the door, which I may add, outside looked like it was all white, and Brian walked through it and totally dissapeared a few feet out.

I wanted to change my shirt, but the Man said I couldn't. So, while 'sneakily' grabbing a shirt [it's black and white striped,one of my favorites], I asked the Man if I could go to the bathroom [remember? he apparently owns me now], and he said yes. I asked him which bathroom I could use, his, or the other one [which is where the second door leads to], and he told me to use the other one.

So I went into the other bathroom [which was blue/green tinted, and had a very large, stained glass window], and the Man appeared in front of me, and took the shirt I had out of my hands. He examined it, grinned at me, then gave it back, and told me to put it on, then left.

I do believe this is where I woke up.

Another note: I've been sick all week. It's horrible. I just recently got the sense of taste back, and my ears decided they'd pop for me. I have a minor runny nose, and I can breathe through it now. But this damned cough will not go away. It's rather annoying.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have some Spanish and Math to finish up for tomorrow :I

regards,
aXn

Lullaby for you to sleep on

I had this really whack dream Wednesday Night/Thursday Morning. I'll post it later, don't have enough time right now.